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If falling in love is like a chemical reactions, then to form a product, first you need to break the one that you already have. If you still can't let go of the first one, then it's not love.

Light and Darkness

Once upon a time there lived Light and Darkness. Light have always been living glamorously with all the sparkles and sunshine, meanwhile darkness lives a humble and content life with shadow by his side. After series of unfortunates events, Light suddenly decided that she adores Darkness. 

Why did I say unfortunate? Because that was the start of Light’s downfall. Light always try to get closer to Darkness, but like the nature speaks for them, Light’s efforts were all futile. Instead of giving up, even if Light now that she’s hurting herself, she kept pushing through until someday a miracle happened. By now, Shadow’s not by Darkness’ side anymore, but like the shadow she is, she’s actually still there, hovering, unable to move on. After that miracle, Light and Darkness become closer than ever, the stupid idiot Light failed to realize that no matter how hard she tried to shine on Darkness, in the end it’s all for nothing. 

For the Light is too lost on her head, dazzled by her own glow, she failed to realize that instead of giving Darkness warmth, the later actually only cringe and feels tired of it all. All the presents, past, and future but Darkness unable to understand why Light gone through all of that. It made Darkness feels guilty, even though guilt and pity is the last thing Light actually want. Light, the naïve Light just keep thinking that maybe if she put enough effort, Darkness would someday feel happy. 

She was so wrong. 

She didn’t realize this until one day Light and Darkness actually went out together in broad daylight. Suddenly from across the road, Darkness saw Purple, Magenta and Red and suddenly Darkness left just like that. Light was shocked and baffled by how Darkness reacted. 

A tiny voice inside her head said, “Yes he’s that embarrassed to be seen with you, he’s embarrassed of you, he doesn’t want people to misunderstood, he doesn’t want to actually be seen with you”. 

Like the masochist she is, she kept repeating those sentences over and over again until she believed that’s what actually happened. She should’ve confirmed it with Darkness herself, but somehow she didn’t do that. People said there are some things that better left unknown and I think this is one of that. Unknown to Darkness, those action has scarred Light’s heart forever. 

On the bright side, Light’s eyes has been opened since that day. She heard the old phrase in her head, some things aren’t just meant to be, self. She convinced himself to stop. Stop everything. Stop trying, stop her feelings. Then she realized she needs something to do to forget all her pain. By becoming The Ultimate Light, she said, eager to prove herself. Now, with the half broken heart, she set out a new, hard, and painful journey.

10/4/2016

You said earlier that you're not happy anymore cos you don't have a crush on someone.

But dear, let me tell you something

Don't ever give the key to your happiness to someone else. Hold the key yourself and find your own happiness.

02/04

Quotes of the day from a book that I'm reading now

“People are full of things you don’t know but that doesn’t mean they’re secrets; you just don’t know everything yet.” He lets go. “And that’s good, otherwise you’d have no reason to talk anymore.”